This thesis examines my preparation for performing Leland Cunningham in Blues for an Alabama Sky by Pearl Cleage. Using the motif of personal expectations, I explore how my ideas of performance have become unbalanced. I evaluate the origin of these performance expectations and discuss how they influenced this particular process. After considering my early career, graduate school experience, and character preparation, I use the final chapter to explore the debilitating nature of these expectations. I consider how and why I can no longer accept this frame work of unrealistic performance expectations; and how through this process I have reconsidered pursuing acting as a primary career but as meaningful art.